Oh about that...

So today has definitely been any interesting one to say the least.

After talking to Cynthia and Ling yesterday via text about my possible move to NY, I couldn't help but cry all night. I love those two people. We're all different and similar at the same time. I know my move to NY will only distance me more with them. Cyn and Ling already do everything Ling and I use to do when I was back home. Before I wasn't miles up miles away. Somehow the distance has served to make ling and me distant. I'm not the person she shares things with. There's very little text, calls, etc. I guess I miss being that "it" friend. It's ridiculous I know. I love Cynthia very much. She's one of my best friends. I mean who could blame Ling for being close with her. I just wish I didn't feel so left behind. But that's part of life. People need things...need people. And sometimes those people aren't exactly you. If only memories could not only be captured, but held. I know sometimes I feel like If I could hold on to them...I'd never let go.


Bad? tragic? or both?


I don't know the answer. Maybe the answer isn't an easy one. Too bad cause I could definitely use a nice mug of hot coco and a "it's all better now" moment. Figured it wouldn't be that simple. What do you expect. Life is definitely interesting.